And sometimes after that shit I wrote in before, haha it makes me think sometimes that....that what am I doing in this world. What am I doing? Umm its a pretty difficult question to answer to be honest!.
But I do know the fact that, I'm doing what I don't like, umm yeah!.
I don't want to pursue enginering, I never wnted to. What I thought when I took the sciences stream was that,( I know it's pretty much kiddish) I will be able to perform in beacon theatre only if I have a degree from a good university of United States!.
I wanted to complete my musical degree from United States, and complete my bachelors side by side.
I wanted an official life, wearing a formal shirt( Calvin Klein, haha) for meetings and play guitar and perform in gigs! all in that formal dresses!, with a tie on!.
I don't like the casual dresses, and I don't like a happening outgoing life too!.
I like a calm life...a life with not much activities...I mean, only the things which I like, the drums, guitar, gym and my family!. And yeah the job I need to do. I like an official life, with...with almost no time to even think about anything else!.
And at the same time,I like a life with some peace, maybe I can put it this way!, I get peace when I do the things I like, and I can spend every second of my life doing those things, and I can still feel that warmth in my heart and the will and the determination in my brain to move forward and still be happy enough to live my whole life even if I have to live without all those glamourous things that everyone thinks is their sole aim of their lives!.
A real life love, my family, guitar performances and a job in which I can relish that official-ness( haha) is what I want!. Money?! It doesn't matter to me, it never did and it never will!.
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