Why do I entertain myself?

by Unknown Sunday, October 05, 2014 0 comments

Okay,so here is the next post in my blog! But to be honest,I don't really know why am I writing this post, maybe because I'm kinda loving the new keyboard in iOS8, or maybe because I feel like writing one, I don't know! Lol

Now coming to the point though!, usually whenever a situation comes, I like to do it alone, all by myself! I don't feel like...like asking for someone's help or infact help someone! I know it's a bit strange! But really, that's what..that's what I really like to do, to be alone, and...and I don't know why! 

I make up situations in my mind, on my own! And using that instances, I think I can do it all by myself! Maybe it's right, maybe it's wrong!, I don't know! 

I go alone to anywhere I go, meet people there, and leave alone! Never do I get invloved in parties, umm maybe sometimes, but I don't like it! 

Since I think a lot, sometimes there comes across a question in my mind, am I really doing the right thing? 

Missing all the fun? Missing the freedom, missing the outings,missing the talks involving girls, being cool infront of other guys because of the number of girls he talks to? missing the vodka,whiskey and all that stuff( I hate to drink) but some people get addicted to all these stuff, maybe there's a reason for their addiction, like I'm addicted to my first love? Yes! But guitar is a completely different thing! But still an addiction is an addiction! Isn't it?

Since every guy, I don't know about girls! hey!, but everyone likes to talk to opposite gender, don't they? Forming a group, involving both girls and boys, yes it it the trend of the teenagers! 

And I don't like that too! I like roaming around alone!, listening to songs and roaming around!, with a guitar in my hands, and roaming around! Alone, entertaining myself, that's what I like to do! Yeah! 

But hey,hang on a second! Do I really like all these things? Can I really make them my so called 'addictions'? Can I really leave my Guitar? My Drums? My Rubik's cube? My love for new gadgets? Okay okay, apart from my first love, I don't really call the rest my 'addictions'! Yes, I love my drums as well, but only as a hobbie! Apart from that, I left all other hobbies! When I say hobbies, I say the chess,and the others mentioned above, blah blah blah and all that! Why? I don't know! 

I heard someone somewhere someday saying you have got to learn to love the toughest thing in the world, that is to standing alone in...in front of the crowd, in...in situations in life where all you have got is to stand alone and fight!

Maybe I heard him, maybe not, I don't know! 

:)